Stormy Weather

This summer, my hometown has had an enormous quantity of thunder and lightning.  It’s been beautiful. It is the kind of weather that kicks and screams for major emotional work and thinking.  And not to get too spiritual (which is really not very sexy), it’s a good time for figuring out your shit.

Years ago, I had decided that I would be the thunder clouds that brought out the fire in people and help them temper their inner storms.  No, I don’t believe kink is a good replacement for a therapist, but it can direct your passions and channel emotions in the meantime.

Before all the rain and thunder, I found a decent crew of people through a Kik chatroom and it felt like home for the first time in a long while.  He started that group.  I’ll call him B.

B and I had a mutual fetish for boot worship (which brings other memories to mind, which I’ll probably discuss some other time).  I had been given a new pair of thigh high boots last year.  I was so sick that I couldn’t even try them on due to my illness, so the laces weren’t even applied yet.  I had him do this for me – since he liked boots so much.

I had all of my gear laid out to let it breath and refamiliarize myself with it for the first time in over a year.  As my eyes traced along the items – nothing spectacular – I had lightening flashes of memories.  The collar that my Toronto boy wore briefly.  The collar I wore briefly, even.  The nipple clamps that Nameless gave me.  He had decorated them with bells, and boa-like feathers.  I remembered myself and Shade laughing at him as he did jumping jacks for us.  A gag I bought from a gay dude that used to go to parties with me here in NL.  His rope work – exquisite.  The path to memory lane igniting with every item I looked at.

Finally,  the first was laced.  I put it on, sliding my finger over the R.  Remembering our first, and only scene so far.  Yet, he was in a fashion, one of my longest standing friends.  He saw submissive me at her heights.  He also saw the Dominant me in all her glory, and in fact, fashioned a part of her.

I walked – shakily – on the 8″ heels for the first few steps and the reality of it flooded down the edges of my soul.

“What will you do to get at my boots?” I asked.  I knew what I wanted from him – he would deal with the pain he didn’t have any interest in or desire for.  He agreed, and off I went.

And then his own drops fell – tears.  I won’t get into the personal details, however, I think it was a temporary reprieve in the cloudy skies for him.

“I hope you realize that I’m not done yet,” (Or some such thing) I advised him, and went back to it.  This time hitting him with more severe implements, and he was able to tolerate it.

And then I let him do what we had probably always fantasized about.  His wriggling around on the ground, my helpfulness run out and deciding not to move to make things easier for him.  He would struggle.  Every man who ever showed interest in me again would have to show me that they are capable and worthy of weathering my own kind of storm.

Within days after scening, the flooding along his banks gave way and he disappeared from the group and needed some time to relax.  I would blame myself, except I know that I didn’t do anything extreme, or wrong, with him.  I didn’t play him hard enough for him to drop.  I even had the expectation of playing with him again next week.  But I’ve had enough emotional weathering at this point in my life, and it’s time for me to simply dance in the rain.

Complete with my 8″ platform stilettos on.

Expect the Unexpected – Day 1

I am a pretty severe hater of clichés.  But it strikes me that generally they are just clichés until they click for you in your life – and then they become life lessons.  I’ve often talked about how expectations can get in the way of things most of the time.  People expect you to act the way they think that you will – not how you think you will.  But they have their purpose.  They set out guidelines for how one should act.  Most times expectations are let down.  And then there’s the rare occasions when they are just completely and utterly blown out of the water.

I just had a week of vacation, and invited someone whom honestly, I didn’t know all that well.  We’d been talking a few months, and got along famously via text and voice.  But yes, I’m well aware of the impracticalities of internet hookups.  With my history, I was expecting him to not show up.  Beyond that, I didn’t have much in the way of expectations.  Well, he did show up.

Here’s the run down of events for those which are curious…

I was nervous leading up to going to pick him up.  My stomach was flipping all around.  I gave myself a good general time frame for getting to the airport going via route of the TCH (as that’s the only one I really travelled before).  I see an airport sign, and quickly take the next exit.  I drive for a minute and actually said out loud “Wait.  This doesn’t look familiar at all”.  I was watching the clock as I worked my way to a part of town that I knew, and realized that IF he did show up, and I wasn’t there when the plane came in that would be….awkward.  Luckily, I rolled in only a couple of minutes late, and he was just making his way to get his luggage.  I don’t really know how I could be confident in who I picked out from the crowd – especially when he was facing the other direction – but I did actually manage to pick him out.  His face is animated in just the right way to not make him intimidating but allowed me to read him fairly easily.

This makes a very, very weak statement about my romanticism, however, I don’t remember when we first kissed.  Most likely because the first day became pretty embroiled with passion and all jells together in a way that doesn’t allow one point to stand out.  What did stand out is the chemistry, the passion, and the….umm…tongue ring.  Yes, Emma is now a fan of this piercing.

Details are escaping me now as I type about it.  It really was only a bit over a week ago, but so much happened in that short period of time that it feels like a lifetime ago.

Eventually, I decided that I would put the tongue to a test.  I had him lick the boots – another cliché, yes, but one that gets me very aroused.  I didn’t tell him quite the detail that I tell everyone else.  I allowed him to touch them, for example, nor did I have him dry as he went.  Another victory for the pierced boy.  I always love my boots being licked, but with the tongue ring, it added a whole other dimension of pleasure.  Him, on his knees, occasionally looking up at me, and me studying him amongst my gasps and moments of ecstasy.  His tongue around my knees, ankles, and inner thighs were really what did the selling – and his attention to my indication that that would be the best focus spots.

I allowed him to prove the final point he needed to with his tongue.  And yes, ultimately, this is what sold me on the piercings validity.  But not just that.  I noticed something about him (which only added to my attraction to him).  He really loves going down on a woman and showed a great deal of skill and technique – which I assure you became quite utilized in his 8 day visit.

I wasn’t expecting any of that.   And one or two things happened which he really wasn’t expecting either.  For example – I ain’t so bad with my tongue either (minus the piercing – of course).

A great day one.

(I’ll be posting about each day individually for my own benefit)